when it is all about e.g.o

why people need ego so much when it is the most frequent reason used when there's a bad relationship?
"he's ego is so much bigger and tougher than the meat my sister cooked last night. that's why i broke up with him."
 or
"she has so much ego than my dog. i don't need a girlfriend like that."
see? why why why why?
blame ego but we actually never take the step to lower our own ego before we blame it on the other or the ego itself.
easiest example, why you never accept the fact that you have many pimples and denying it by covering it up with concealer?
why have to buy an S size shirt when you know you only can fit in M size and above when you buying shirt or clothes with friends?
to say you are embarrassed is not good enough. lying to your own self is worse because you'll end up feeeling guilty your whole life.
"why didn't i just tell him that he has booger on his nose?? now he end up being picked up."
or or
"why didn't i just say sorry? maybe he'd not kill my cat if i did."
see? there's so many bad or regretting consequences when you are too full of your own ego. even a good friendship might be ruined.

"dude, why didn't you just accept her apology?"
"why should i? she's just a bitch i can live without."
"but she really mean it."
" fuck her then. too much ego and does she thinks she's hot? get a life."
see? EGO??? speak for yourself.

EGO can lead to stress to the person who are innocent or actually had lowered their ego seeking for forgiveness.
or even worse, low-self esteem towards one self.
not only to those who seek forgiveness but also to who doesn't have good or nice friends at all. they might end up looking like this:

see the BAD DANGEROUS VICIOUS consequences?
=..=
move on to my next glorious point, yes you might have the reputation but you'll never have a good nice friend and you will NEVER EVER gonna find one.


okay. bye.

the bitch in red~

here's the thing. i was on rush *well, not that rush! BUT my bag is freaking heavy people!

the place where the crime against gorgeous people ESPECIALLY ME happened was in.. let say, LDDT.
okay, here's the thing.
i was on the drop-off luggage counter, well OBVIOUSLY wanting to drop off my luggage~ DUH! people DUH!
so the the offender was working. well, ya, i came and drop my luggage *it is obviously what the counter are for*
and when i finished, i looked at the weigh well, 23kg. JUST freaking JUST 3kg excess than the amount i bought. do the math people!! especially those who are in LAW. HAHA.

so i was thinking. maybe around 30 bucks. oh well, i still have THAT much money in my purse tho. so, i casually asked the criminal offender.
"berape kak?" hoho. okay trip semenanjung jap~ LOL.
she mumbled.
"hah?"
" 9xxxxx" i was like WHAT BITCH???

"x boleh kurang ke kak? student pun x leh kurang? 3 kg je kot~"
" sorry dik x ble," she rolled her freaking ugly deformed fish eyes.
"fcuk!" i mumble and i look through my purse. BULLS EYE people!!!!
i only manage to score 60 bucks in my purse! DEM!
so i have to do puppy dog eyes to my hero of the day... drum roll please!!!!!
                                       Steve.Fricher.Joseph

wohooo!! i manage to paw him almost 40 bucks. SEE people?? SEE?? Sky Asia manage to turn me into a peminjam freaking HUTANG. lain kali, buat seja servis along di LDDT tu Sky Asia. sampalau punya munyit!!
bug u! bug u! BUG U!!! bugima punya Sky Asia.

this is Sky Asia in real life. HAHA. bugima kau paw duit student! bug u!

secondly, time before imigresen tu kan ada check boarding pass. saya tunjuk la ma ci tu *orang yang lain.
"ni xde cop la dik." ahh?
"ni? cop?" tunjuk guna ibu jari. cop tu bawah sticker~
"xde. pg check balik." BUGIMA for the second time.
so with my freakinglicious face i turned on my no heel flats and stormed out. i was like. apa lagi la ma ci tua ni mau????
out of the queue i check and guess what, the COP was there cute and clear. not my fault. bug!
so again i queue and the other police was like what?? because my face was...

so when i reached the ma ci i was like.
" KAK, ni HAH cop! nampak?? puas??"
she was, " oh pg sabah..."
" fuck la," i said loud enough for the ma ci to hear. FUCK YOU RACIST!! i HATE YOU FREAK!! BUGIMA PUNYA PEREMPUAN. malairen memang MACAM tu!!!

k bye.

its called growing up people~

let me list few reason why i start to stop talking to you:

1. i don't know the freaking reason why you don't want to accept my sincere apologies. i sent text messages    trying to cool things down, try to talk to you for making it up and here, WALLA~ you making faces. that is the shittest thing a guy can do the a girl. dem. apa lagi kau mau saya buat? belutut minta maaf? hell, NO. thank you. i have lots more thing to worry about than a petty so-called "friendship" we HAD.
2.  secondly, you are an asshole like always. LIKE ALWAYS. hah! take that fair and square~ i don't fucking now why the heck i can stand you in the first place.

enough rambling. LOL.
its 4 months HOLIDAY people~ so here, i gave you some suggestion to what you can do during the holiday:

1. jadi jaga. di rumah. kalau malas sangat, jadi jaga bilik tidur sendiri. masuk kerja habis kerja, semua bole runding. gaji? satu jam bole sampai rm100. bole runding juga. pandai2 negotiate la. bole jadi jutawan.
2. jadi vacuum cleaner. apa yang perlu dibuat: makan habis semua sisa-sisa makanan di rumah. cara2 for application: makan lepas semua orang di rumah habis makan. pesan awal tinggalkan sedikit makanan. selepas tu; vacuum semua. x payah susah2. vacuum habis. pastikan licin. tiada makanan? masak. lepas tu, vacuum habis. masa kerja? setiap kali selepas family makan. gaji? perut buncit. extra for overtime: extra 10kg. menarik bukan?
3. seterusnya, menjadi penunggu katil. confirm tiada berani tidur di katil. tuan punya katil pun tidak berani tidur atas katil sebab kamu jadi penunggu. LAME. kerja: 24/7. 
4. penjaga control tv terhandal. silap2 bole masuk audition penjaga gol Manchester United kalau hebat. kerja: jangan biarkan control tv jatuh ke tangan orang lain. setiap kali ada orang rebut, capai sepantas kilat. gaji bole tahan. professional: mungkin akan diberikan tidbits semasa menjaga control. usahakan sehingga menjadi pro.

okay. enough for tonight. penat. sangat. PENAT. happy holiday people =)

racism aint' cool dude!

so here! right this very moment, all i want to do is to scream out loud, " FUCK RACISM!"

*glory glory glory man united!*
okay, HAHA. off side jap.

okay, just now i was scrolling down my Facebook page, i found this specific comment;

see?? one of the commentor refused to admit that he is a MALAYSIAN. here again.

his point was, I AM NOT MALAYSIAN AS I AM NOT MALAY. i mean wat da eff???? just because you are not malay doesn't mean your are NOT malaysia. for efff sake. you are even a university student dude!
and here you are talking about not a Malaysian just because not a malay. way to go for a UNIVERSITY student dude.

you should get a head shot. HAHA.
people like this are the one who would make this country come to her downfall earlier than what we had predicted. i mean, just look at the comments.

as a borneon, i do have to admit that, people in Borneo have less racism problem than what i had see and experience in Peninsular. i mean, we live in a more diverse surrounding than in Peninsular. i am not being bias what so ever but it is seldom to find such problem. BUT we do have it though. its like a must (?)

EXCEPT racism towards the PATI* pendatang asing tanpa izin. i mean as a MALAYSIAN towards another MALAYSIAN, it is quite rare. yes, there's quite a few stories i heard but not as many i had witness here even in UM LAW FAC itself.

what worse is, the minority like us, we are like being push from one side to the other. if you can speak one particular language than walla! there you go, you are most welcome. if not, then sorry but you just cannot fit in. like, geddit? GEDDIT?

and yes i've heard we are called the borneOs. uooh~ we are not. i mean, look at US. we be friend with all. take the nearest and simplest example; ME. i have friends from all the race. every possible race that exist in the law fac i tried to be friend. *okay, i feel like so FAKE here. haha.

i have indian friend, malay, chinese, sarawakian and even an international friend. i talk to them regularly. i joke with them. without any malicious feeling. i consider myself as Malaysian. not o borneo or sabahan or non peninsular.which WE are usually LABELLED as.

i remember the early day when i first went to UiTm Shah Alam for my foundation. one friend of mine from somewhere not sabahan or sarawakian asked me, " you guys are still like live atop of trees?"
"guess what? YES WE ARE. AND WE USE FUCKING ELEVATOR!"
" no wonder!! malaysian citizen are not that advance yet. you guys should be happy not a malaysian,"
i was like,THE FUCK WE ARE NOT MALAYSIAN. THE BOSS. i bet you fail your Geo.

i almost chocked out a Fuck You but i didnt.
here's, another USUALLY asked question,
"you guys have tv in sabah?"
"no, we dont."
" really? so no astro is it?? wait, do you know what is astro?"
"yep no tv in sabah. we use FUCKING home theater. and yes i know what is astro,"
how i wish you guys can see the priceless face. dem. if ASTRO BEYOND or ASTRO HD were already promoted that time i'll use that freaking point. HAHA. serve you right.

okay. that's it. fuck racism.  one malaysia! wohoooo!!!!

alasan kenapa exam confirm GAGAL. cerita LXEB1114.

ni alasan saya bila parents saya tanya kenapa saya GAGAL family law *okay TOUCH THE FREAKING WOOD*

ma, kami jawab exam tadi tengah2 ribut salji.

bayangkan. macam ni la exam hall tadi. serius saya kena frost bite tadi. BETUL. muka saya ni muka menipu??
 *___________* <---- muka saya. kan tidak menipu? seyesssshit dowh. tanya DEBBIE. lebam jari saya. biru2. bengkak. sakit? tidak. bodoh. memang la sakit kan. gila.

nah nampak?? lebam kan. frost bite. atau jari saya memang gemuk? T___________T
x payah cakap kuat2 jawapan. btw, sejuk berabis tadi. otak jam. tau jammed? kalau dari first college pergi Midvalley jam, melayang RM20. okay mencarut. sejuk. SANGAT. begegar lutut. haih. FAIL sebab sejuk. lain kali dewan exam tu bole kasi jadi bilik mayat. confirm x reput. conclusion: Malaysia panaskan?


pa, tadi kawan saya ada yang habis ink. jadi saya stress. terus saya fail.
time saya tengah jawab tadi tiba2 Cik ___________ datang dengan muka semangat. dia lalu sebelah saya. macam emergency, dia jumpa dengan DNA. "ni, kad jemputan kahwin saya,DNA." muka DNA time tu priceless!!!!!


































HAHA. gurau. dia muka semangat tadi. macam muka PBSM time sukan sekolah dulu. mau selamatkan orang. MENGENCANG. HAHA. DNA and the gang tengok dia yang hampir tercungap2. she blurted out,
"ada pen lebih x? ada student habis pen!!" okay, lebih kurang la ayat. tapi memang macam tu. fikir pasal muka semangat, siapa habis ink pen dan bila Malaysia turun salji ambil masa hampir setengah jam! kan suda saya cakap. habis ink pen bikin orang gagal. haishh. kamu tidak percaya.


pa n ma, saya rasa saya telampau banyak study. sebab tu fail (?)
ni la muka saya time tengah berfacebook semalam. HAMPIR sama la.

minus the jambang and short hair. HAHA. me. yeah. hyper. i know. okay. tu seja.bye.

ye,cik. apa boleh saya bantu?

ni la dialog yang selalu kita dengar bila masuk kedai. especially kedai yang ada "STANDARD". konon. HAH!

bila kita senyum dan cakap its okay, buat jelingan pula kan. terbalik biji mata tu. tinggal putih lagi. lain kali practice! buat dua kali pusing. satu kali pusing mana cukup! KENCANG lagi.

lepas tu, bila kita jalan round2 kedai, sanaaaa la juga kau menempel. ergh. bila kita dah belek barang dekat rak tu kita letak balik, mata tu buat lagi putaran somersault. BAGUS BAGUS. kalah the rock. kau ingat barang kualiti china harga mahal mcm taik idung micheal jackson kena jual dekat e-Bay ada orang mau beli? bukan semua barang kualiti china buruk okay.tp mostly yes.

next stop, promoter2 cantik dan pondan dan perasan hot di kedai mekup berjenama and perfume mahal. ah ni NI LA paling saya anti. dem. especially tu promoter pondan. perasan cantik. ugh. no offense but ni memang saya selalu kena. dem punya pundaen. tau la, orang kampung kan. siapaaa la saya ni. baju bukan la Zara mcm sorang tu *bila dah beli jeans Zara, satu dunia kau nak bagitau kan. opps!
tapi poket ada duit la kak (?) eh bro (?) okay confused jap.

hari tu saya masuk la ni satu kedai perfume. memang tujuan mau beli perfume. ingat suka sangat saya masuk kedai perfume? semua bercampur last2 mcm bau ketiak comel uncle teksi ari tu. dem. bole bedarah hidung. ada la satu promoter confused gender ni. make up tebal dari saya. tp x shave. okay hideous monster. then i was browsing through the DKNY sections. plan nak beli be delicious green apple (yes! my current perfume). i was touching and smelling the smell. and you all nak tau apa PONDAN tu cakap, " miss, are you buying? if NOT then please do not touch," and i was like..WD FISSSSH punya pondan. perempuan sebelah saya yang memang dressing macam model kau tak tegur kan.

adeyh. ni tebakar jap. lagi mata tu! MATA tu!!! MATA IKAN. tengok saya dari atas bawah. nasib x bawa kawan time tu. " why? do i look like a barbarian that do not know how to handle things? OR do i look plain poor?" yes! and that is exactly what i said to that fucking promoter. he / she whatever this the creature is look like.'eskiuuuuuus me?"
" tak.. saya cakap, saya ni nampak kolot sangat ke? macam xde duit?" HAH! jawab kau. JAWAB.
" em. tak, tak. tu bukan maksud saye."
"tak pe la. tapi begini ke korang kene layan customer. no wonder la kedai ni tak banyak customer," HAH! serve you right freak. okay. and then saya keluar dari kedai. perlu ka saya begaya macam model runaway baru nampak berduit. dem.

FYI, kau tu promoter. tau tak kerja promoter tu apa? PROMOTE BARANG. bukan halau customer. one more thing, if you want to speak English in the first place, then LEARN. do not simple ingat apa you have to say. see? memalukan you company or kedai or whatever it is. duh~

saya pakai short pakai simple t. bukan tiada duit. kau ingat orang pakai baju branded, nampak baru keluar dari model runaway tu semua ada duit? HUH. tu salah beb. TU SALAH. prinsip hidup maybe: BIAR MISKIN ASAL BERGAYA MACAM ORANG KAYA. dem. see?? i said it. bergaya = berduit is not the same mr PONDS.

satu lagi type saya x suka. ikut kau pergi semua tempat. tau ka privacy membeli tu apa? kalau ya pun mau jaga dari barang kena curi, at least 5 meter, 5 FREAKING METER away from the customer.

another type of pekerja kedai that we should be aware of is.. they bad talk the customer. okay, saya pernah kerja as cashier? see. i am not spoilt! hoho~ so i was a cashier dekat lingerie punya section. so one fine day, datang la satu orang perempuan looking for bra. i don't deny the size of the bra she might be looking for might not be available because it looks like she need a life support for her twin. can you imagine the size?

so, one of my co-worker call her friend. you know what they say? "astagaaaaaa. memang x payah la pakai bra tu. besar gilaaaaa." dengan slang pekat SABAH.
"tu la, mcm mau terjatuh. kalau dia jalan, begegar, jo." i was like. punyaaa ni perempuan. kau cakap breast orang besar, breast kau tu ko fikir perfect? it is PUNY. like NONE.
"pakai tempurung kelapa ja la.."
and they were laughing like hyena.

and no, i don't join them. it was mean. considering "mine" is not that small. HAHA.

so the moral of the story is, jangan beli bra. beli underwear.
ok babai! i need to study.

kawan pun kawan juga brader~

okay okay. saya mengaku saya suka berkawan. tapi tidak semua orang saya suka kawan. HAHA.
orang yang saya jarang tegur (dalam real life) atau memang tidak pernah tegur (real or virtual)
get the hint. HAHA. okay.

bukan saya sombong cuma saya pilih kawan. sebab bukan semua orang boleh kena percaya kan?
okay, situation:
A dan B kawan biasa. B selalu tanya A kenapa dia suka pegi toilet tengah2 malam. A malu mau bagitau yang dia kalau berak kena ambil masa dekat sejam. oleh sebab si A tidak mahu bagi tahu pasal masalah berak dia, B geram. esok2 C tanya A ," A, saya dengar kau sekarang suka main di toilet tengah malam," okay. itu DEFAMATION. nah kan? tengok? apa jadi. semua benda kena twist jadi something yang kau tidak pernah terpikir pun.

okay lame.

satu lagi situasi:
W dan Z kira kawan baik la. keluar selalu sama2. pigi mana2 pun sama2. kira okey laaaa. geng laaaa kiranya kan? tapi W kadang2 annoyed dengan Z sebab bila keluar ramai dengan kawan lain si Z ni selalu condemn W guna weak points W yang dia tahu. dia kasi malu tahap anjing beranak la. MENGENCANG ABISSSS. haih. nah itu macamana mau handle? susah juga kan? kawan makan kawan.

*pengalaman sendiri.

another thing is:
N dan L baru kenal. kenal gitu2 jak la. ala orang puteh*uuUuUU* cakap ACQUAINTANCE. bukan kenal pun. setakat tau nama sama course yang diorang ambil (ya laa dah sama course ambil kat university) tapi bila jumpa di luar, bila nampak satu batu lagi teriak lambai2 tangan panggil nama. okay. itu annoying. macam stalker. kau ingat kau kenal saya? handphone jenis apa saya pakai pun kau tidak tau apa lagi brand underwear VICTORIA SECRET saya. see? geddit? get what i mean? jangan terlalu friendly. its not good for your health.

next!

kau banyak dengar cerita buruk pasal ni budak. okay let us name the kid J. *J bukan nama sebenar
banyak orang tidak puas hati dengan J. pasal J banyak buat hal dengan ramai orang. memandang kan kau belum nampak lagi flaw dia, kau dengan hati kaca sesuci nilam merah pun pergi berkawan dengan dia. banyak dia la luah pasal macamana actually orang cari pasal dengan dia. dia tidak buat salah pun. dia just mau protect kawan(?) then one fine day, you got team work dengan J. you do it happily. what friends are for RIGHT? just 4 days before the dateline, J dumped you as a group mate. leaving you do the job alone while J went along with another friend of J to do the work. okay. what the EFF do you feel? RIGHT? i know.

so kawan memang kawan. tapi jangan la annoying. don't push too hard. like TOO HARD. ok bye.
BABAI. babi. saya emo

teksi oh teksi~

al kisahnya begini. di satu tengah hari yang mendung di mana tiada kicauan burung.
maka bertolak dua manusia ke bus top menuggu teksi *takde pulak teksi stop kan =.=||
okay lame.
setelah ketiak berpeluh dan mekup dah hampir cair~
satu teksi tua dipandu dengan kelajuan selaju siput ferari datang~
tahan punyaaa tahan! berhenti la juga teksi sexy yg number plat hampir menampakkan lurah (?)

LAME.

back to story mory.

uncle tu pun tanyaa la dengan slanga pekat (x tau slang apa)
"mau pigi mana amoi??"
"__________________ la uncle. bole ka?"
"okey naik la~"

dari depan bus top hingga dekat area SS2 tengok meter, terbelalak  mata bercontact lense diameter 14.5 cm effect 16cm tengok harga. RM 6. nak jam, jam tarak pun??? =.=||

apasal cekik darah betul meter teksi ni weyh =.=|| adeyhhhh. MENGENCANG BETUL NI JOOOOOO!!
haha.
pasal x puas hati, bergossip la dekat belakang teksi kutuk2 uncle.

tengok punya tengok. rambut uncle panjang dan slick melekat bekilat di kulit kepala.
seksiiii dowwwww!!!! mesti guna minyak rambut kelapa dara. uohhh~ dengan bau ketiak yg agak comel :). hik hik hik hik! *okey gedik.

paling seksi pasal uncle ni, rmbut tu bila dah sleek berkilat, keriting di hujung. uoh! mcm uncle cerita tamil dolu2 pegang watak penjahat XD HAHA. *kaki tengok wayang tamil? =.=


bila sampai destinasi, hajat nak marah uncle teksi pun x jadi =.=. pasal rambut dan bau ketiak yang agak comel. HAHA. harga teksi tu agak2 la.

k bye uncle TEKSI. BABAI. BYE.

lain kali jangan naik teksi tengah hari. bau.

where you can buy CHEAP, AFFORDABLE and NEGOTIABLE stuff... :)

you guys loves antique? books? jeweleries? any thing antique??
well, i do :) hehe.

especially books :) yep. because the old books are worth reading unlike the modern one..
the books that we see sell or displayed in the bookstores are mostly love story (well, i read that too tho),
which i found the story too cliche, as i might call it :) HAHA. and the price was ermm.. unbelievably pricey for
a book that has a thickness of like 3-4cm?? RM30 or more??
as a student is it pricey you know :)

well, like a few weeks ago and just today i went to armcop mall for a lunch in
ATAP-ATAP RESTAURANT, the food are like super nice and affordable too :)
weeeee ho!! like seriously and there menu were quite a number. its worth it. my fave is nasi goreng daging.
banyaaaaak nasi and banyaaaaak daging. the price range is around RM7 and above. its worth it though.

enough with the food. HAHA. back to main topic. antiques and oldies.
okay every Sunday ( i usually went there on Sundays) there will be like this mcm
pasar (?) oldies on the ground floor of armcop mall. HAHA.
so my target whenever i go there will be the BOOKS.
i bought like  5 books i think, which only cost me more or less 20 bucks.
 WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

there;s quite a genre of the books sold. one book usually price between 5 bucks to 10 bucks.
depending on the books you like. i love thriller, romance (duhhhh~) usually the English stories revolving aroung the early 30's. i would love that. stories about the earl and lady, whooooo!!!!!
and also the myth. i mean dragons, vamps, elves.

i think lots of other stuff like old stamps, iron (?) and even piring hitam. sold in reasonable price. the
best thing is YOU CAN NEGOTIATE the price... so you know (he he) save lots more money.

for girls, i think you guys would love it! there's lots of jewelries VINTAGE and bags are being sold too :)
in reasonable and negotiable price too :)

the long vintage necklace

and the owls
u can find in ARMCOP from 8 bucks!! murah kann?? like if you buy from other place usually like 30 to 40 bucks ore even more. so YEAH, CHEAP riteeee?????

basically, you can find anything here in ARMCOP. wohooo.. so yeah, try it out :)
there's clothing too. its quite cheap too :) and cute.

so yeah, daaaa!

p/s: instead of going to Times Square etc, why don;t try here first :)