.nobody's story.

when you walk pass a really old man, holding a stick without no one helping looking so helpless, what is the first thing enters your mind?
some common answers will be:
1. where are his family??
2. pshhhh. probably some beggar.
3. didn't see anyone and walk past through.

how many of you actually going to help the old man? if it is me, i might be thinking twice maybe thrice well most probably not helping. well are you? it's not about the lack of morals or the decreasing value of humanity among the human race nowadays. it's just there's so much things going on in this world that it is so hard for you to actually trust people easily.

the accessibility of news nowadays actually giving us the advantage to understand how things really work now. to understand people is to understand the way the world works now. to survive. how are you going to survive if to trust people so easily can be a disadvantage? some people are just to vulnerable when it comes to people. especially when it come to children and old people. i do have tender hearts for these two but my not so-innocent knowledge about this un-virgin world do help me to survive.

the deteroriating value of trust in this time of life have somewhat drag along many other good values that one might find in others if just trust is valued as it was before. the mysteries in life, the beauty in friendship and the adventure in every new person we know might surprise more than we expect. how do you value trust depends on you entirely.

for me, as long as you keep your promises, i can trust you. but to trust you well enough is another story. i admit that i had not been able to keep some promise that i made but i tried to make it up to them. but what i regret most was, the chances that was blown away together with the promises i couldn't keep.

a not so wise man told me, trust is so fragile you know, once you broke mine towards you, i would never going to trust you again.

so, lesson learnt. even though such er, wise words was never expected from him, but i believe those words really come from him =.= sorry man.

.non-smoking area, smelly.

hey smoothies.

"Your teeth is kind a yellow-ish... somehow remind me of apple caramel. delicious. NOT."

"Your breath smells remind me of last night leftover.........."

"you turn me off. literally"

well, these are some of the things i wish i had the courage to say to some of the irresponsible smoker in non-smoking area to get them understand how they annoyed me. to my understanding as a normal non-smoking being, a non-smoking area do mean no smoking. as in, NO. SMOKING.

should i continue being patient with this people who doesn't know the difference between a non-smoking and a smoking area? maybe the tar and all those chemical stuff inside the cigaratte causing a significant effects towards their brain to actually decrease their capability to think and register what they received into their neurons. illiterate and dumb. pshh.

move on. oh this is another thing i wonder the most. unique body odour. i shouldn't call it smelly or salty or whatever you can describe it as it might offends some people. do they ever smell themselves and think even JUST for a moment that are there any invention that can help me to curb my unique smelling body. *sigh

guys are the one who usually having this problem despite of races and beliefs. well, age do actually contribute to this problem and make it even worse. some women actually smell highly interesting too but it is in our nature to be more attentive to such thing.

why why why why?do even for a minute try to smell your armpit and decide whether if your friend have the same armpit smell like yours, would you sit a car with him/her? would YOU? if you wouldn't, then maybe it's time for you to say HI to a long lost friend of yours, MR DEODORANT.

there's no need for you to buy the expensive one. try REXONA. it is quite cheap and it works. for those under arms who looks like never been washed, you can try Nivea Double Whitening. it works. really. i am using it. at least, my under arms look decent and has no interesting smell.

i USED the middle and it SMELLS really NICE

or at least try to take bath TWICE a day. if you are that lazy, ONCE is enough. in the morning. before you go and mingle with your fellow human race and kill them slowly with every contaminated air around you :)

.hygiene can affect your social pyramid.

.random rambling.

 hey watermelon-ist!

there's always a group of people which you couldn't stand. ALWAYS. yes, you can always deny if you want to but i do believe deep deep deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep down in your uncaring heart you have. well, maybe just a tid bit annoyed  am i not right?

oh okay, maybe not a group maybe just a few. who aren't? recently i had this talked with  my fellow muggle friends about how they actually pick and choose their friends. 

i myself do pick and choose my friends. well, quite picky i might add to that. however, i have this one specific friend whose thinking are still conservative i might add. i am not being judgmental *well i do* but the thing is i'm afraid, this friend of mine really is conservative.

i am not saying this as a negative thing however, there's some point in life you have to stop being so conservative and accept how the world around you works as it is. well, as i had state above that i am quite picky in choosing those who are unlucky enough to be my best friend though but I DO socialize and be friend with each and every human being i encounter whom i think had pleased me they way i might pleased them. and people, please. no negative thoughts.

i am not going to critcize on this dear friend of mine but rather would like to discuss how sometimes conservativeness to be implemented in our daily life might not or rather not helping us at all.  for example; 

why would you judge someone based on their clothing style or their sense of fashion? just because one wear skimpy clothes doesn't mean one had become a slut don't they? if they is, then all those celebrity whom you obssessed with are too slut don't you think? they too wear super short short and you call it fashion cool but when someone you knew wear such fashion you label them as slut. whoa. how unicorn are you? 

just because one kissed and lost their virginity is a bad influence and rather a shameful being to walk around or even worse to be friend with. i have few acquintances who is in the opinion that those who lose their virginity is not someone to be friend with but rather be avoided. then, they started to start all this crap about what the Bible said about women like this need to be stoned to death. well, PREACHERS i do believe the Bible also told us to not talk bad among us and to love others like how we love ourselves. maybe they just skipped thath part. oh well, nobody perfect though.

another thing is just because one express their thought in a cynical way or in a very pessimist manner doesn't mean the person is being mean or being bad and need to be avoided. for instant my blog is full of pessimistics things as that is how i rather speak up my thoughts than being old fashion where you constantly talk about good things. sometimes, things need to be spice up a bit don't think? if everyone is being a goody goody boy how could one life can be considered as a adventerous life? oh yeah. maybe drinking coffee instead of milk late at night is considered hardcore for this people. well not me.

yes, one might thought i am being cynical well duh~ mr obvious I AM. one even might say i am too liberal that i might end up stray away from my beliefs. yes i am a liberal thinker yet i do know where i stand in my beliefs. i am not the hardcore believer that doesn't want any adaptation to some of the rules to make it flow with the current waves. and i do know somethings are made not to be changed. but at some point, you need to open up the puny brain of yours and start to work it up even a tiny bit.

well, once i was an active little church activist. i still do mind you. it just that, at some point, i just couldn't relate their behaviour with their teaching. they say not to talk bad about others and not to judge others. well, the next thing is right after the end, they started gossiping about their neighbour. well, they call it a spiritual discussion. then, when one buy new car, the other label them as someone who wanted more than he should have and better to use the money for a good cause to the church.

well hello? how if he buy the car because his family no longer couldn't fit into one tiny car?.... bitches.  

so, the conclusion is.... it is almost new year!! 2012 is just knocking on the door people! have you made new resolution?

when it is all about e.g.o

why people need ego so much when it is the most frequent reason used when there's a bad relationship?
"he's ego is so much bigger and tougher than the meat my sister cooked last night. that's why i broke up with him."
 or
"she has so much ego than my dog. i don't need a girlfriend like that."
see? why why why why?
blame ego but we actually never take the step to lower our own ego before we blame it on the other or the ego itself.
easiest example, why you never accept the fact that you have many pimples and denying it by covering it up with concealer?
why have to buy an S size shirt when you know you only can fit in M size and above when you buying shirt or clothes with friends?
to say you are embarrassed is not good enough. lying to your own self is worse because you'll end up feeeling guilty your whole life.
"why didn't i just tell him that he has booger on his nose?? now he end up being picked up."
or or
"why didn't i just say sorry? maybe he'd not kill my cat if i did."
see? there's so many bad or regretting consequences when you are too full of your own ego. even a good friendship might be ruined.

"dude, why didn't you just accept her apology?"
"why should i? she's just a bitch i can live without."
"but she really mean it."
" fuck her then. too much ego and does she thinks she's hot? get a life."
see? EGO??? speak for yourself.

EGO can lead to stress to the person who are innocent or actually had lowered their ego seeking for forgiveness.
or even worse, low-self esteem towards one self.
not only to those who seek forgiveness but also to who doesn't have good or nice friends at all. they might end up looking like this:

see the BAD DANGEROUS VICIOUS consequences?
=..=
move on to my next glorious point, yes you might have the reputation but you'll never have a good nice friend and you will NEVER EVER gonna find one.


okay. bye.

the bitch in red~

here's the thing. i was on rush *well, not that rush! BUT my bag is freaking heavy people!

the place where the crime against gorgeous people ESPECIALLY ME happened was in.. let say, LDDT.
okay, here's the thing.
i was on the drop-off luggage counter, well OBVIOUSLY wanting to drop off my luggage~ DUH! people DUH!
so the the offender was working. well, ya, i came and drop my luggage *it is obviously what the counter are for*
and when i finished, i looked at the weigh well, 23kg. JUST freaking JUST 3kg excess than the amount i bought. do the math people!! especially those who are in LAW. HAHA.

so i was thinking. maybe around 30 bucks. oh well, i still have THAT much money in my purse tho. so, i casually asked the criminal offender.
"berape kak?" hoho. okay trip semenanjung jap~ LOL.
she mumbled.
"hah?"
" 9xxxxx" i was like WHAT BITCH???

"x boleh kurang ke kak? student pun x leh kurang? 3 kg je kot~"
" sorry dik x ble," she rolled her freaking ugly deformed fish eyes.
"fcuk!" i mumble and i look through my purse. BULLS EYE people!!!!
i only manage to score 60 bucks in my purse! DEM!
so i have to do puppy dog eyes to my hero of the day... drum roll please!!!!!
                                       Steve.Fricher.Joseph

wohooo!! i manage to paw him almost 40 bucks. SEE people?? SEE?? Sky Asia manage to turn me into a peminjam freaking HUTANG. lain kali, buat seja servis along di LDDT tu Sky Asia. sampalau punya munyit!!
bug u! bug u! BUG U!!! bugima punya Sky Asia.

this is Sky Asia in real life. HAHA. bugima kau paw duit student! bug u!

secondly, time before imigresen tu kan ada check boarding pass. saya tunjuk la ma ci tu *orang yang lain.
"ni xde cop la dik." ahh?
"ni? cop?" tunjuk guna ibu jari. cop tu bawah sticker~
"xde. pg check balik." BUGIMA for the second time.
so with my freakinglicious face i turned on my no heel flats and stormed out. i was like. apa lagi la ma ci tua ni mau????
out of the queue i check and guess what, the COP was there cute and clear. not my fault. bug!
so again i queue and the other police was like what?? because my face was...

so when i reached the ma ci i was like.
" KAK, ni HAH cop! nampak?? puas??"
she was, " oh pg sabah..."
" fuck la," i said loud enough for the ma ci to hear. FUCK YOU RACIST!! i HATE YOU FREAK!! BUGIMA PUNYA PEREMPUAN. malairen memang MACAM tu!!!

k bye.

its called growing up people~

let me list few reason why i start to stop talking to you:

1. i don't know the freaking reason why you don't want to accept my sincere apologies. i sent text messages    trying to cool things down, try to talk to you for making it up and here, WALLA~ you making faces. that is the shittest thing a guy can do the a girl. dem. apa lagi kau mau saya buat? belutut minta maaf? hell, NO. thank you. i have lots more thing to worry about than a petty so-called "friendship" we HAD.
2.  secondly, you are an asshole like always. LIKE ALWAYS. hah! take that fair and square~ i don't fucking now why the heck i can stand you in the first place.

enough rambling. LOL.
its 4 months HOLIDAY people~ so here, i gave you some suggestion to what you can do during the holiday:

1. jadi jaga. di rumah. kalau malas sangat, jadi jaga bilik tidur sendiri. masuk kerja habis kerja, semua bole runding. gaji? satu jam bole sampai rm100. bole runding juga. pandai2 negotiate la. bole jadi jutawan.
2. jadi vacuum cleaner. apa yang perlu dibuat: makan habis semua sisa-sisa makanan di rumah. cara2 for application: makan lepas semua orang di rumah habis makan. pesan awal tinggalkan sedikit makanan. selepas tu; vacuum semua. x payah susah2. vacuum habis. pastikan licin. tiada makanan? masak. lepas tu, vacuum habis. masa kerja? setiap kali selepas family makan. gaji? perut buncit. extra for overtime: extra 10kg. menarik bukan?
3. seterusnya, menjadi penunggu katil. confirm tiada berani tidur di katil. tuan punya katil pun tidak berani tidur atas katil sebab kamu jadi penunggu. LAME. kerja: 24/7. 
4. penjaga control tv terhandal. silap2 bole masuk audition penjaga gol Manchester United kalau hebat. kerja: jangan biarkan control tv jatuh ke tangan orang lain. setiap kali ada orang rebut, capai sepantas kilat. gaji bole tahan. professional: mungkin akan diberikan tidbits semasa menjaga control. usahakan sehingga menjadi pro.

okay. enough for tonight. penat. sangat. PENAT. happy holiday people =)

racism aint' cool dude!

so here! right this very moment, all i want to do is to scream out loud, " FUCK RACISM!"

*glory glory glory man united!*
okay, HAHA. off side jap.

okay, just now i was scrolling down my Facebook page, i found this specific comment;

see?? one of the commentor refused to admit that he is a MALAYSIAN. here again.

his point was, I AM NOT MALAYSIAN AS I AM NOT MALAY. i mean wat da eff???? just because you are not malay doesn't mean your are NOT malaysia. for efff sake. you are even a university student dude!
and here you are talking about not a Malaysian just because not a malay. way to go for a UNIVERSITY student dude.

you should get a head shot. HAHA.
people like this are the one who would make this country come to her downfall earlier than what we had predicted. i mean, just look at the comments.

as a borneon, i do have to admit that, people in Borneo have less racism problem than what i had see and experience in Peninsular. i mean, we live in a more diverse surrounding than in Peninsular. i am not being bias what so ever but it is seldom to find such problem. BUT we do have it though. its like a must (?)

EXCEPT racism towards the PATI* pendatang asing tanpa izin. i mean as a MALAYSIAN towards another MALAYSIAN, it is quite rare. yes, there's quite a few stories i heard but not as many i had witness here even in UM LAW FAC itself.

what worse is, the minority like us, we are like being push from one side to the other. if you can speak one particular language than walla! there you go, you are most welcome. if not, then sorry but you just cannot fit in. like, geddit? GEDDIT?

and yes i've heard we are called the borneOs. uooh~ we are not. i mean, look at US. we be friend with all. take the nearest and simplest example; ME. i have friends from all the race. every possible race that exist in the law fac i tried to be friend. *okay, i feel like so FAKE here. haha.

i have indian friend, malay, chinese, sarawakian and even an international friend. i talk to them regularly. i joke with them. without any malicious feeling. i consider myself as Malaysian. not o borneo or sabahan or non peninsular.which WE are usually LABELLED as.

i remember the early day when i first went to UiTm Shah Alam for my foundation. one friend of mine from somewhere not sabahan or sarawakian asked me, " you guys are still like live atop of trees?"
"guess what? YES WE ARE. AND WE USE FUCKING ELEVATOR!"
" no wonder!! malaysian citizen are not that advance yet. you guys should be happy not a malaysian,"
i was like,THE FUCK WE ARE NOT MALAYSIAN. THE BOSS. i bet you fail your Geo.

i almost chocked out a Fuck You but i didnt.
here's, another USUALLY asked question,
"you guys have tv in sabah?"
"no, we dont."
" really? so no astro is it?? wait, do you know what is astro?"
"yep no tv in sabah. we use FUCKING home theater. and yes i know what is astro,"
how i wish you guys can see the priceless face. dem. if ASTRO BEYOND or ASTRO HD were already promoted that time i'll use that freaking point. HAHA. serve you right.

okay. that's it. fuck racism.  one malaysia! wohoooo!!!!